I am the brattiest brat there ever was. I can’t help it, it’s in my nature to be defiant. If you tell me I can’t do something, I’ll do it. If you tell me I have to do it, I won’t.
So when I threw out those cupcakes and declared myself sugar free for two weeks the only thing I wanted to eat was sugar.
I had made this declaration on Friday. On Saturday I woke up with a headache and decided that the only thing that would make it better would be coffee… with cream… and sugar… lots and lots of sugar. It was actually too sweet but I drank it anyway and pretended like it was just the thing that I needed.
I get migraines that are so severe that they send me to the ER puking my brains out until they give me some sort of medicine to knock me out. Therefore, I’ll usually do anything to keep a headache from escalating, especially while Brent is away at work. This wasn’t one of those headaches and I knew it but I pretended like it was so that I could get what I wanted.
The coffee didn’t cut it, probably because what I really needed was water. But I told myself that I needed banana pancakes. This way I could sing Jack Johnson’s song about banana pancakes while I made them. This would make me happy, therefore I would relax, therefore my headache would go away.
It didn’t work.
The whole day went this way. I ate worse than I would have if I had never made up that stupid challenge. I never took the Metformin that I need to start taking because I started my day off with sugar and that was sure to send me to the bathroom over and over again.
So this is what I have to say about the sugar challenge.
I QUIT! You win SUGAR… you sweet tasty bastard.
I am such a brat! Why can’t I just suck it up and give up sugar for a measly 14 days? Because I want what I want and I want it now. This impatience is what prompted the whole challenge in the first place. I wanted to get to the 100’s and in a hurry. When am I going to learn?
I have to play mind games with myself all of the time in order to be successful with this whole weight loss business. This is hard because I always know what my next move is before I even play it. The trick that has worked for me so far is to pretend like there are no rules. If I tell myself I can have whatever I want in moderation then I could care less about sugar. This was proven during week 5 weigh-in.
I always feel like I need to do something drastic or fancy in order to lose weight but that just simply isn’t the case. Weight loss is boring and pretty uneventful. I keep trying to make it sexier than it is.
So now I’m back to where I was before and that’s not a bad thing. I’m pretty sure I’ll never get back into the 100’s by March 1st but that doesn’t matter. I’ll eventually get there. Because in the end, bratty girls always get what they want.
I’m going to enjoy my tasty yogurt snack now… with honey.
Tasty Yogurt Snack:
1/2 c fat free greek yogurt
1 tsp chia seeds
drizzle of honey
1/3 c Kashi Honey Sunshine Cereal
lots of fresh blueberries and strawberries