This week has been a sort of “Deep Thoughts by Jack Handy” kind of week. I’ve been thinking a lot about where I am and where I’ve been and I’ve concluded that this has been a journey well traveled.
If you look in the archives of this blog and read where I was when I first started you will find a woman who was desperate to change. I was so uncomfortable with where I was mentally and physically that I couldn’t enjoy myself in the moment.
I’ve come to the conclusion that it doesn’t matter what the scale says on any given day. This is the path I’m going to have to follow in order to stay happy and healthy. I’m not perfect and I’m sure there will be times when my curiosity gets the best of me and I will vier off the path. But I’m sure the flying monkies will scare the crap out of me and I’ll find my way back to where I belong.
Before I stepped on the scale this morning I took a moment to just be happy with where I was in the moment. I’ve reached so many of my goals. I’m the definition of health both mentally and physically and the number that popped up today wasn’t going to change that mind-set.
When I stepped on the scale said 198.4…. YAY!
I tried to tone down my excitement because I just got done lecturing myself on how the scale doesn’t define me. But let’s be honest, this number is freaking awesome! I’ve been waiting to break out of the 200’s for a year!
In the past I’ve struggled with loving myself and trying to better myself simultaneously. I always thought that if I was trying to better myself then I must not be happy with the way I was. On the other hand, I felt that if I was happy with myself then there was no need to try to change.
I’ve come to the conclusion that there is nothing wrong with loving yourself the way that you are while you pursue a better you. I’ve decided that if I really love myself then I need make healthy choices daily. Before you know it those little baby steps can take you to some great places.